My 29th Chapter on the 26th…

and so the 26th has passed and i turn to my 29th chapter…and these thoughts make up the year which lead to the end of my 28th…

1. growing up can wait…be a kid whenever you can and cherish the moments when you’re able to be one because you’ll never know when you’d need to forget that you’re still a kid…

2. you’ll never be prepared for what life brings you…no matter how many times you rehearse a scene or practice your dialogues life’s crazy script has a way of modifying itself at the last minute…

3. heartbreaks are always a good thing…heartbreaks teaches us so many things about ourselves…you get to learn and relearn things you forgot along the way…

4. bad decisions are never bad…it’s all about perspectives but then again bad decisions tend to be hard to swallow once you realize there’s lessons to be learned from them…like a pill with a bitter aftertaste ๐Ÿ™‚

5. the world will never run out of people who make excuses for themselves…heck i’m guilty of doing the same once or twice ;)..but hey, i try to take responsibility for my actions and decisions as much as I can…whenever i can…

6. that in spite of everything that’s been said and done, how you see yourself should not depend on other people’s opinion of you…learning to brush things off and focusing on your own values will keep yourself at peace…

7. expectations are not good for your well being…when you expect things disappointments are not far behind…

8. that no matter how lonely you feel inside, life will surprise you with something that can make you smile…it may come as a simple greeting from your 6-year old neighbor ๐Ÿ™‚

9. a cup of coffee is never too hot on a hot sunny day….especially when you’re sharing this with people who are there to encourage and lend an ear to your present woes…

10. real friends will always be there when you need them…lending you their apartment keys when you need a place to crash when you feel lost…

11. reconnecting with friends is like a cup of hot chocolate during gloomy days ๐Ÿ™‚

12. sometimes we break our own rules…not only because we want to but because sometimes it’s the right thing to do…or so we thought ๐Ÿ™‚

13. no matter how convicted we are about certain events in our lives,ย  we’ll always find a reason to give someone a second chance…

14. there’s always a lesson to be learned…somewhere in the chaos of things…

15. it’s never too late to write…and the loneliest moments are usually the best inspiration…

16. it’s never too late to talk to Him…it’s never too late to trust in His plans and to keep faith that amidst all the heartaches, His plans are good…

17. grab opportunities no matter how scary and uncertain things seem to be…those opportunities might not come again should you decide to look the other way…but if you do…accept the consequences of your choices…suck it up if you have to…

18. (in conjunction with #17)…regrets are never a good thing…

19. being kind to others or being shown kindness in one way or another will always leave you smiling ๐Ÿ™‚

20. pride has no room when it comes to love…

21. love will always move you to do things beyond your own beliefs…

22. sometimes, you have to take life as it comes…don’t make too many plans…an adventure once in a while is a good thing…like traveling to unfamiliar places in manila and getting a tattoo ๐Ÿ˜‰

23. you can always be a better person…we’re all a work in progress…hopefully we’re all progressing towards something better…

24. listening to music can be therapeutic…especially when unknown artists churn out songs that just leave you speechless in their awesomeness…

25. sometimes doing things which seem insane to others is the only way to keep your sanity intact…”hey mr. penguin, so how have you been?”…

26. you can never get too much sleep ๐Ÿ™‚ … take a nap whenever you can…but please refrain from dosing off in places where you risk losing anything of value or being taken advantage of…

27. we are all capable of letting go of the most familiar things and the most comfortable human connection…sometimes we need to let go of these things and confront the unfamiliar to realize that we are worth more than how we are treated…things have a way of gettingย  lost and people tend to leave…it’s okay to cherish their memories but then we’d have to learn to draw the line when it’s no longer wise to hold on to these memories…

28. i am beautiful…i define who i am and my worth is not dependent on anyone else’s opinion…

and lastly…

29. your FAMILY is the greatest treasure you’ll ever have and the love you get from the peopleย  who make up your FAMILY can never compare to any other…

BDAY

Notre amour

i run my fingers
across the sheets and
remember lying in your arms
during humid nights
and hot summer days…
i remember
how your heart beat
in those intimate moments…

we laid in this pallet
vast as the ocean…and
i swam the core and the meaning
of the kisses from your lips…
the warmth from each embrace
overflowing with tenderness
and desire which i could
not have learned from books
and could not have been
taught in school…

in this pallet, as quiet
and as deep as the trenches
is where i immersed myself to
fathom your abysmal slumber
and to trace every detail
of your face and hold your every
breath and sigh as
you dreamed…where
i held you close
in the warmth of my bosom…

in this pallet as pure
and as calm as the ocean
is where i let the abundance
of my love…and my desires
flow and ebb in each
kiss…in each embrace…
in each moment i gave myself
which you answered
with endless waves
of your own desires…
and perhaps your love…

and maybe…if walls
could speak
they would tell the world
of these moments…
these intimacies
that only we shared…

i run my fingers…
along the edges of this pallet
and realize that i was amiss…
because the vastness…
the depth…and the overflowing
love and desire
we shared
has reached its end…

unlike the ocean…

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