A pivotal moment

that hits you full throttle without warning;

like an unwelcomed guest

that rings your doorbell in the middle of the night,

and plunges you in the profundity of

an uncomfortable reality,

pushing you to claw your way up

from the bottomless pit you have dug for yourself.


write me a letter
while i am away…
describe your thoughts
and all that you feel
while i go to find
while i figure out
whether to choose
a past love come back
or to move forward
where you are only a memory…
the choices laid before me
come at a price…
do i choose to lose you
or should i choose to lose myself?
would happiness come to me
if i choose either?
my heart is at a loss…afraid
of losing you and losing itself…