Her Last Love Letter

Dear M., she wrote
in lovely strokes and beautiful cursive…

in each line…love letter
she poured out her heart
ending each sentence with
a tear…and a fragment of the love that still clung to each cell
of her battered heart…

she wrote of their memories…
of lessons learned…of realizations…
of the love they once shared…
of what was left of who they once were
to one another…

and she wrote her goodbye…
a painful farewell
to all the years they shared…
the plans they made…the promises…
the dreams they dreamed together…
the intimate moments…
and to the piece of her heart which only belonged to M…

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Acceptance

i write
to tell you
that my feelings overflow
and i am choosing
to let these feelings
flow through me
freely…

i’d like
to say…
i loved you…i love you…for always…

to tell you…
how much you meant to me…how much you mean to me…

to tell you…
i’m sorry…and thank you…
for all the small things…for all the big things
you’ve done for me…you’ve given me…you’ve shared with me…

to tell you…
i miss you…i missed you…i will miss you…

to tell you…
that days spent with you
were wonderful…were beautiful…
and are treasured…will be treasured…

i love you…

and when you leave
take a piece of me
so you remember me…for always…

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Lost

i wrote acceptance
on my wall
but now im not so sure…
did i skip a few
stages of that grief
i had to go through?
i’ve come
to realize the truth
in William Fitzsimmons’ song…
in my mind,
i never got to grieve you…
though i didn’t see you
in the arms of another
but i knew that you were…

i don’t think
i’m in denial..
i don’t believe
i’m angry
but i might be
jumping back to
bargaining…
and then later on to
depression…
i wonder where
i am at this point
i guess one thing’s for sure…
i am lost…

i wonder
where and how
i might find myself…
i wonder
where and how
i might pick up the pieces
i wonder
will i get to where
i need to be…
where i should be…

i no longer
want to cling to the pain
of why you left me..
i no longer
want this yearning…
this sadness…
this longing…
i wonder
how do i get through this?

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