Let me love you

Let me love you –

here and now…

with all of my brokenness…

with all of my chaos…

It won’t be perfect…it won’t be everything you ever dreamed of

But I promise you

it will be real and true…and loyal…

and my truth and my love will

embrace everything that is you –

all your brokenness

and all of your chaos…

Someone’s cup of coffee

I’m not…and  I won’t be

everyone’s cup of tea

But maybe someday…somewhere in time

I might just be your perfect cup of coffee –

Blended just right…

Just the right shade of darkness…

Just the right hint of strong and boldness…

a little bitter and just enough sweetness

to brighten up your day.

21.01.01

Radwimps x Aimyon’s duet is on repeat – it’s in Japanese

And I can’t understand a word and yet the melody and their voices

keep me from changing songs…I am enthralled…

I feel the longing…the despair…the sadness…a tinge of regret…as if saying

“I miss you”…”I still love you”…”How are you?”…”I want you back”…

“I wish I were with you…I wish I was the one holding you”…”I wish I can still hold your hand”…

“I wish I could go back…I wish I can turn back time for both of us”…”I want to run to you”…”Give me another chance…let me show you that I’ll be better this time around”…

But neither take action…they let these desires play in their head…

They stifle their voices and keep these wishes inside…

They let logic reign in their emotions…I guess they know that their time has passed…

 

RADWIMPS 泣き出しそうだよ feat あいみょん Aimyon

Thoughts over tea

It happened because it was meant to happen…

It was supposed to – the crash…the falling out…

I still remember the day you left…the rain…

You said it wasn’t planned, but I saw the hesitation in that last glance

Somehow I read your mind – that if you were to walk out the door

you were walking out for good…and there it was –

a momentary hesitation…because maybe

You knew you were taking a risk;

I wonder if you were afraid…or maybe you were just nervous –

feeling the thrill of taking a step towards something you felt was better…

But I’m thankful that you took that step…that you walked out…

because you gave me the opportunity to come back to me…to grow…

to get to know me again…

It was all meant to happen…everything unfolded as they were supposed to…

Everything was as it should be…everything is as it should be –

the pain…the discomfort…the brokenness…the sadness…

even the lies…you were meant to lie to me – over and over…

It was the last push…I never had the courage to take risks…to jump…

to take the leap towards Me…

You walked away and it compelled me to struggle on my own…

and to break…to accept –

that everything was as it should…

There’s still a long way to go..I haven’t reached the end of my leap…

I don’t know what lies at the end…what I do know is that this will be quite a journey…

I might fall and break again…but then

I might just continue to fly…and soar…